Acceptance
it is easy to accept
a fine gift from the king a trinket or treasure
wrapped in gold
paper to accept i sacrifice nothing
but to accept
loss is quiet a different thing something is missing
i am no longer the
same person i was the world is different
the morning is no
longer bright nor the day not the night
sorrow overtakes the
world how do i accept what i do not want
i open my heart i
arm myself as if for battle
this acceptance will
not come easy i will try i will fail
just too
hard but... i will try again the bad dreams will be over
spring will come i
will awake i will live again
as if for the first
time i will notice the beauty around me
that has been waiting that has been there all the time
that has been waiting that has been there all the time
once again hear the
bird song meant only for me i will be thrilled
i will look back i
will remember still i will miss you
...and on some days i will mourn
July 30, 2015
12 comments:
I don't know that we ever accept something as personal as death - the why of it - it is a question we carry with few answers that even make sense. I think the acceptance we come to is that it happened and nothing I can do will bring them back, I can only live my life to honor the gift I had of time with them. I am glad that you are living again because I think it does honor the loss - but yes, some days we mourn.
" how do i accept what i do not want".....life is so very hard...yet we carry on accepting the fact...sigh...
Acceptance of a grave loss is the most difficult form of all. Well penned.
Lots of love,
Sanaa
I agree there are somethings that weigh us down and we have to look toward brighter days or sink in despair.
Yes getting through the dark is the hard part but there is always a spring. Great poem.
Beautifully penned. So true, accepting a loss is not an easy thing but yes, the spring will come. I loved the hope that reflects in this poem.
Loss is definitely very hard to accept. Perhaps in a way we never really 'accept' it but we keep walking forward and adapt to life without... We will always miss those who are no longer with us, and that is okay. I do like the idea of beginning to notice the beauty around you again. And, when you think about it, I am sure he would like that.....
I echo X's words.........in living, we honor the gift of who they were in our lives and the time we had with them. But yes, the mourning - the missing - goes on for a very long time. Someone very dear is no longer here. Beautiful writing, my friend.
My heart is with you Annell. Thank you for sharing your process of grief, and for expressing hope. I know one day you'll appreciate the beauty around you again, but the mourning will simply change, it will always be there.
Loss is always a difficult one to overcome. But alas, the day does come when things do start to look a little brighter. I think that's something worth holding on to.
I love the last line, so heavy with emotion:
"...and on some days i will mourn"
I admire the sense of moving through in this piece Annell - like breathing and processing - it is not 'right' but still we go on and we find light and lightness where we can..a beautifully wise and honest piece xo
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