Where Have You
Gone/ Son of Mine
This year it will
be four years
Since you went
away
Leaving a hole as
big as the Rio Grand Gorge
I continue one
foot in front of the other
I travel a new terrain
An empty space
Lonely, without a
plan
Without a map or
compass
How can we know
What lies ahead
How will we survive
Without the one
we love
At the time
It didn’t seem
possible
Not the “right”
order of things
And still you
left
Quiet, dignified
In the early
morning
When I arrived
Your bed empty
I remember, the night
before
How hard it was
to leave you
I kept coming
back
I inhaled you
Filled myself
with the scent of you
As though I could
keep just a little of you
I asked at the
desk
And was assured
It was not time
I am empty now
My soul wanders
Seeks to find you
Howls in the wind
Stumbles over cactus
Lost in the sand
Will this be for eternity
Or just a little
while
March 16, 2014
8 comments:
Oh its anguish you are feeling, so deeply written.
Hopefully every time you pen your hurt. Your soul heals a little
Much🌼love
This is heartbreaking :( wishing you love and peace, Annell.
annell, i can not believe it has been this long. it's incomprehensible. and he, irreplaceable. utterly so. and yet, what a bounty this love has been. (i can still feel it and who am i?)
i feel deeply for you, as do your other friends here. it is difficult to see a pain so unremitting. but how glad i am for the love.
Thank you, Annell, for writing this. My friend was travelling with her family and her boyfriend. That night at a motel the fellow slipped away through a window. He was not to return. I new it was a strange situation but didn't have much insight as to my friend's thoughts and feelings about the matter. This helps me to know.
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This is so very sad, Annell. I cannot believe that it has been four years. You have described the missing so well. And putting one foot in front of the other is all you can do. We cannot know what lie ahead. We cannot know who will go first. Losses are not easy, and the feelings do not go away. Blessings to you, Annell.
A beautiful tribute to one who will be in your heart forever. Four years is a long time. Ten is even longer. It gets softer, but never leaves. Blessings to you.
Oh my Annell. So very sad and how honestly you have written about your grief and pain. I am so sorry to read this. But you have become as wonderful a painter of words as you are of pictures. Putting one foot in front of the other is so very brave. I have read your poems where you end with a phrase such as "you are gone.". Thank you for writing from your heart . It is a beautiful haibu n and ending haiku.
Of course this goes straight to my mother's heart. Unbearable
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